Project Fetish
In project fetish I show the diversity of fetishes and what they mean in the lives of these men. A fetish is generally a "beloved object," but it is also an object of special sexual interest. I want to investigate and visualize that. By having a conversation I discover what the fetish means in their lives and how I can visualize it.
I discovered my fetish through the film: Soldier of Orange. (Oops, I've never told this story to anyone). |
How did I get a white underwear fetish? |
I was fascinated… 15 years ago, at the bar in the Pullermanns, gay cruising bar. He on the side of the toilets and darkroom, full of leather and a tough look in his eyes. I'm wearing a Polo, Army pants and work shoes. He pulled a fat cigar from his breast pocket. Grabbed it between his fingers, sucked at it and lit it. I just kept watching as if in slow motion. I saw the beautiful smoke. I smelled the smell of his cigar. For me, this was all about masculinity. I thought he was super cool. I felt like a little man to him. I was impressed, I did not dare to address him. |
Ik ben een DL-er. Een Diaper Lover’. Ik spreek hier niet openlijk over. Naar de buitenwereld heb ik dit nog maar één keer uitgesproken. Er zit een groot taboe op. Daarom durf ik het niet tegen mijn vrienden te vertellen. Ik ben bang voor foute reacties en dat ze me niet begrijpen. |
He took off his shoes and swung his right leg over his left knee. His foot came very close. If I wanted I could just touch his foot. I had to look at his foot, my eyes stared incessantly. 'What a beautiful foot' I thought I just kept looking and felt myself getting excited So close and I wanted to touch them I just experience watching. |